Why I Am Not at the Castle Bash

[rockettqween]

I lived at the "Castle" a good many years ago. It was a very confusing time in my life. I'd been dumped by the man I was later going to marry and I had just left my parents prison less than a year prior. This was the beginning of Rocket Queen's attempt at self-sufficiency at the tender age of not quite 18. The woman going away that the party is for I've had a love/hate relationship with for a long time and was my roommate at the time. I haven't been in close contact with her for a year or two and my feelings about her and hers about me are quite mixed. I just didn't really want to deal. I feel very strange in certain surroundings and with all the memories that have been coming up lately, I didn't want to dig up any more. I realize that many members of Rocky past and present will be represented, and I have a great deal of affection for them, but the show will live on and I hope to remain somewhat involved for a while to come. My social anxiety is also reaching its peak again and nowhere is this more amplified than at festive gatherings. It's been really interesting knowing the Japanese-Irish Aries. My life is probably better for it. Best of luck in San Diego.